Don't know why i start this in English

Maybe because i just read a blog that written in English
arh i'm so easily influenced by others
erm juz wanna talk about the result of monthly test
the worst result i ever get
en don't feel like disappointed because i know i didn't put in much effort
but i hate myself doing like this
i forget all my priority all my goals
put aside all the homework and motivation
screwed up all the things

HAIZ

stupid gurl, plz wake up
think about ur future
thnk about the money
think about their expectations

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